[21] Reggie Mantle, this is your life!

So I'm thinking I'm dropping out of Darrow. This post was a lot more ???? and searching for advice when I first decided to write it, but then I thought it through while processing three friggin' hours of tires and I think I ended up selling myself on it. At this point, it just seems like the surest way of not continuing to let down my friends on the regular. I'm just in this weird mental place where I love thinking about RP and talking about characters with people and making plans, but when the time comes to actually put the words down, everything around me is suddenly so much more interesting and I can't keep pretending that it's something that's going to clear up. I'm sure I'll come back around to writing as a hobby again, I get the uncontrollable urge to write for a few days about once a month, but then it's just... gone again, which obviously isn't sustainable for RP, so it always just ends up getting wasted. Blah, I don't know. The one thing that's been really stopping me from considering the nuclear option before now is that I really, really love my current roster and character relationships as it is, so when I eventually do feel ready to come back, the idea of apping back up to this point will feel daunting enough to keep me from ever bothering so if I'm gone that means I'm gone forever? But no, that's dumb, I'll come back when I'm ready regardless, I'm just being dumb, never mind.

Ah, fuck. I have to go help Dwayne bring the racks in. TALK TO ME, GUYS, SHOULD THIS BE MY BIG DROP EMAIL EQUIVALENT?